Artist: Ilsól Title: Sarmata Field: Low Voltage Date emitted: 19 October, 2021 Number of tracks: 8 Total lenght: 50 min Catalogue number: EEM062
Description
A few years ago close members of my family had tragically passed, several dear relationships had been severed and multiple toxic ones established eventually leading me to a complete breakdown.
With nothing else but wonky synthesizers and impractical sound design choices to keep my company an idea to rip out the heavy emotional background noise that I experienced daily was born.
Through audial exploration I managed to return to my child-like self, along with values I thought I had scattered along the way.
I leave this with you as a monument to the time I believed to be the dawn of my being.
Tracks
Prisipažįstu. Aš – The first step on the path to purgatory – owning up to personal wrongdoings.
Galva ant Debesies – A dive through atmospheric layers while trying to hold onto the fragile outlines of existing.
Pirma Meilės Savaitė – As all things, good and bad, cease to exist, new beginnings carve themselves into never-ending cycles.
Prašau Tylos – With nowhere to turn but inwards, a soaring pain rips through the remains of self-constructed comfort, infinitely echoing through the bleak and empty headspace.
Tarsi Gyvas – A state of endless melancholia, somewhere between missed opportunities and fragments of failed utopia fated to rust, eventually fading into dust.
Sarmata – The limbo. The retrogressive metamorphosis of soul. The moment all values attached to objects are no longer valid. The ability to finally see yourself from a distance.
Niekada Nebebus Saulės – Breaking out of a cycle in the most aggressive way imaginable, tearing down all former beliefs, cursing out every name you can remember for aiding you in reaching this point.
Upeje už Namų – While thick clouds of smoke roar along your façade, the core is ready to give in. Blessed by your own limitations you finally drift into a dreamless sleep.
